Something about me

[Closet Smoker 84]

sometimes i just can't finish it

[stix72]

Where do you guys smoke? Since no one knows I smoke, I'll either do it outside where I'm sure no one will see me, or in my car.

[dex]

I don't live at my parents' anymore, I'm on my own in a flat, so I can smoke there whenever I want
When I go and stay at my parents', I smoke when they leave, or when I go out.

[Closet Smoker 84]

i live with my parents and i smoke when they're not at home and i know i have some time to enjoy it (in every sense lol) without risks. i use lots of air deodorant and toothpaste when i'm done, and i'm usually anxious till they come back and i'm sure that they didn't notice anything.

[dex]

lol I would feel strange coming back home and smelling deodorant everywhere if I were your parents...
Mine smoke, so it's not a problem they won't notice if it smells on me or in the house, but I always feel stressed lighting up because I'm afraid they would arrive unexpectedly, so I smoke only when I'm sure they won't be back until a couple of hours.

[Closet Smoker 84]

my mother smokes but my father quit over 10 years ago, so i'm more worried about him finding out (she just doesn't notice if there's "fresh" smoke or not).
as for the deodorant, i smoke around the bathroom so i spray it there, where it has a sense

[stix72]

Man it must be nice having parents who smoke. I'd love to be able to light up in my house.

[dex]

Yeah, sure. The big thing for me is that they can't smell the smoke on me, and that there's always cigarettes in the house if I'm running out of. But, I couldn't imagine how they would behave if I was telling them... They're telling everyone I'm not smoking, how good I am for that and so on .
But anyway, now I'm in my own home so I can smoke at any time.

[pavement]

I'm 28 and I've smoked since I was about 15. I smoke about a half a pack a day now, but right up until I was about 22 I only smoked 2-3 a day. I pretty much only smoke in my house, I live alone. Two reasons why I've never came out and smoked publicly, the main one is that I smoke Virginia Slims Menthol Lights 120s... and that's not exactly the kind of cigarette a man would want to smoke in front of anybody. The other reason is just that I've hid it for so long now it would be extremely weird now. I think some of my friends know but they never say anything about it.

I also have a smoking fetish, and I like seeing women smoke long all white cigs, which is one reason why I smoke the kind I do. I would kind of like to quit, but I think I'd have a hard time doing it, although I can still go for days without smoking if I'm in a situation where I can't smoke privately.

Was interesting to stumble across this message board. I think everyone who finds it should make the effort to post, we're not alone out there! But this enables us to maintain our privacy.

[dex]

Me too, as I smoke only when I'm alone, I feel strange smoking publicly, even with friends who know I do. And that's quite boring sometimes, it's like I would not do it the right way or whatever.
How can you smoke half a pack a day for so long time and not needing to do it every day?

[Ant]

I've just come across this forum, and I must say it's been great finally hearing other stories similar to my own!

I'm in my early thirties, and a closet smoker. I too have a smoking fetish.

My parents both smoked (Mum "Silk Cut" and Dad "Raffles 100s"). I can remember feeling excited at seeing ladies smoking in my early teens - I'd really get aroused when one of my mother's friends lit up.

What's a young man with a smoking fetish to do? Start smoking, of course! I bought my first packet of cigarettes at a vending machine in a bowling alley when I was fourteen. This was the only place to get cigarettes at that age. I remember rushing in, buying the f*gs, and running out.

Opening that first pack was such a turn-on:- in my hands, I had twenty glistening filter-tipped cigarettes.

I smoked the first one in a private alley 2 miles from home. I didn't enjoy the smoke, but let's say it was enjoyable in another way!

For years, I'd continue to sneak smokes outiside, away from home. My parents would never smell it on me, I figured, by the time I got home - they'd be puffing away anyway.

To this day - some fifteen years later or so - I continue to smoke secretly. Nobody knows I smoke (I think!). I have my own house; my own smoking space.

Why do I light up? I'm not sure I particularly enjoy the cigarette per se. However, the effect of lighting up is still one of arousal, and that's why I smoke. I think if I smoked in public, I wouldn't experience the arousal to the same extent - certainly, I wouldn't be in a position to enjoy it!

Anyone else with a similar fetish?

P.S. THOSE WHO DON'T SMOKE - DON'T.

[Jeff]

I'm 48 and have been an "undercover" smoker for at least 30 years. I usually smoke only on business trips and then about 10-15 per day. My wife would be really upset if she knew that I smoked. I kind of wish that I could be open about it but then again I know that I'd get really addicted so it's probably good that I have to be in the closet.

[nonamerequired]

Hey all

Im so excited to find a board like this to post on, i didnt think such a great place existed!!!!

Anyways, I had my first cigarette when I was 12. Between the ages of 12 and 14 i snuck about 2 cigarettes a day each day, until I cut down to about once a week for sports reasons. Now, im 17 (underage, yes, i know thats bad...) and I went nearly all of last summer, fall, and winter without smoking until just in the beginning of March I smoked about half a pack of cigarettes with a girl who was working at drama one night (we were working on a prop for the production)

Since then, ive only smoked 3 or 4 times, but every minute of every day i wish i could be smoking. I want to smoke now, ive been wanting to all day, I daydream about smoking...I love cigarettes, and thats the bottom line.

Normally I can get my hands on Marlboro Menthol Lights or some Camel lights, it depends.
I want to become a full time smoker, my 18th birthday is approaching in a few months, but im still torn over the decision, sports and friends of mine would just be devistated if i became a full time/public smoker.

Thanks so much guys, I hope to hear from and get to know y'all in the near future.


PS- Ive had a smoking fetish since I was in diapers practically, and I'd say that was a key reason of why i tried smoking so early...

[dex]

Sounds funny to hear smoking is bad because you're underage... Here in France, as there's no age limit to buy cigarettes, most of teenagers start between 13 and 15... I smoked for the first time pretty lately at 17! So it is normal to see teens smoking and well accepted here.
I'm like you, I really enjoy to smoke, but I'd rather like to keep it occasionally. I think I wouldn't enjoy it as much if I was a regular (especially when you need to smoke in a non-smoking place). Smoking only when you want to is soo enjoyable!
My parents have just left for 2 days, I'm on my own in my house so I'll be able to smoke as much as I want! I haven't been able to smoke for ages as I had a d**n sore throat this week, so it'll be great, yeepee

[Pavement]

Well, absolutely awesome news here for me. I've been dating this chick for about three or four months... non smoker. But we get along really great, so I've cut way back on my smoking so as not to let her know I'm a closet smoker. People who don't smoke have hyper sensitive noses for smoke it seems. The one good thing for me is I have some friends/family who smoke and I allow people to smoke in my house, so I always had a scapegoat for why the house smelled of smoke sometimes.
Anyway, getting to the awesome news part. I suppose she must have been suspicious maybe, I don't know, but one day she brought up the subject of women smoking. She asked me what I thought about how it looks. Quite cautiously I replied that I kind of thought some women looked good smoking. So she says, do you think I would look good smoking? I said, uh well yes I think you probably would. So she says that maybe she'll pick up a pack and give it a try (she had tried it before but years ago). Well I couldn't believe my luck, needless to say I was pretty excited about the prospects of seeing my girlfriend smoking. But a few days went by and she never bought any cigarettes, so I decided to take a bit of a risk. I bought her a pack of Virginia Slims Menthol Lights 120 (my closet brand) and a lighter and gave them to her one night. She said, what are these for? So I reminded her she said she thought she might give it a try. She said, ahhh so you've got more than just a passing interest in seeing girls smoke, I kind of thought so. So I was busted (about my fetish anyway). But she seemed pretty cool about it I guess. She said, well ok, why not? She opened up the pack, and lit one up. She was able to inhale without coughing (she used to smoke pot occasionally when she was in high school). She didn't have much of any smoking style, she looked like a rookie, but don't get me wrong... she looked bloody awesome!! My girlfriend smoking a looong all white cigarette. Oh man, I'm sure I don't have to say what a giant turn on that was, and she knew it too.
So anyway, even more awesome, without any prompting, she has pretty much started smoking! She only smokes 2-3 a day I think, but it's been over two weeks and she's still smoking, and not just when I'm around either. Very cool!
I still haven't smoked in front of her yet, but hopefully if she keeps smoking the time will come before long.